Hang on to the Light

I never told you what I felt when I first saw this art made by you.....first reason I was afraid to bring memories you maybe don't want to remember.....and I admit I always feel afraid to post comments in your old arts exactly for that thought....but I really hope I do a little good for you with my comments....I really hope....the second reason is the fact I would like to say something that I believe you could "understand" a little after my last comments I post in one of your recent arts ( Afraid to Love).....and reading your reply made me feel you have understood and respected my feelings......cause you did not say I should "overcome"...."change"....."move on".....you understood is a part of who I am....you always say "it gives me hope"...I can say the same......and finally my interpretation....what I feel seeing that art...even being something different for what you wanted to show to others......I feel like that woman is not being "saved" by the light.....I don't feel the light "helping" the woman.....she is not happy....is not like the light is something evil....she is not denying the light.....however the light is not able to reach the most mysterious and darkness parts of her mind.....soul ....and heart........she is dressed with a beautiful dress.....howerver...is much more than that.....is dressed by drakness......we could say the darkness was mixed with her own being.....is a part of her.....we can not see her left hand like was a part of the dress....her hair looks like was mixing with the dress.........and her dress looks like roots.....being a part of her in the darkness....make her a part of it.......so...people try """save"""" her from the darkness.....seeing a being so pretty and delicate........people try hard lend a hand to bring her to the light.....and she really needs see the light to not lost her existence mixed in all that dark....in all that pain....however the darkness is a part of her....a part of who she is......and deny is not embrace who she is.....and in that case the dark is not something evil....is her....something special and pure.....dark....looks hard to see her without light...but like darkness......we can feel without ""see"" with our eyes.....we can see her with our hearts and sould.....if we really care and try.....we can feel......and what we can found in all that darkness.....is a being with a precious heart.....that woman looks sad not to see light....but afraid to hold that hand from the light too much....and that person from the light be consumed by her darkness.....the person from the light think she is hanging on his hand.......but her ""roots"" from the darkness can not be destroyed...is a part of her.....destroy it and a part of her would be lost.....however let her be in the darkness ....the woman would be lost...mixed in a way her human form would never return again even with light......so she needs the darkness and light to survive....but she is too good and kind to let people be in contact so much with her darkness....so....she dropped her hand from people who hold her too much trying to bring her to the light.........facing all her darkness alone....without any light.....when the true people who can see her from all that darkness only can see her....due the fact she is the light.....her essence.....the most special feeling deep inside her....deep inside in that ocean of pain.....the same dark ocean of pain that angel go to the surface alone....thinking the only light was from others....and with her wet wings....sad feelings and thoughts...she face her own reflection on water waves....distorted reflections that make her see herself like a monster... ....a being of pure light not able to see her own goodness and beauty.....suffering alone in an ocean of loneliness......and always returning to the darkness of her ocean of pain.....where her ""roots"" keep her far from people..the roots blind her when she is alone on the surface...and she let her light shine only when she is deep in that ocean....when she let her be who she is without notice her own light.....but.....there is the ones lost in time.....with frozen feelings......lost souls living with the memories of the past...who could dive deeper in that ocean without fear lost breath....cause is not water we can breath in all that darkness....it is you......and it is not our light you can see when you are near people who """save"" you.....people just share your own light with you.......you are kind and really try understand sincerely others people feelings....pain....emotions......your own darkness gave you that ""power""".....is not magic power.....is just the choose to go so far for others without fear hurt yourself in the process.....I love you for that....what I mean?.......I like you unconditionally.....and you can see you love all people?.....cause indepedent of genre.....race.....age.....if people say good or bad things.....you always treat people here with respect and a lot care.......this is like others unconditionally......love the others......with the most prettier meaning it could be.....so....I hope you feel loved too.....and I am someone who love your existence......of course what I feel and felt my whole life for the one I told you will never change......but don't mean I can not feel something for someone as special as you......and I hope you let people who respect you and admire you....."""see""" you without you feel guilt for any pain your darkness could may cause.......the light you provide can only be so bright due your own darkness...so I love your whole being....the light and darkness that make who you are......I hope it is not inappropriate to say that to you....and I am not talking about that feelings between men and women......I only would like to make you understand it is ok be who you are.....and is not only about be ok be who you are......means a lot be who you are....and who you are for others.....and you are special for sure.....so always when you feel talk could make you feel even a little bit better.....just ask for help.....here in DA....in real life....don't face all your pain alone....of course in the end you are facing it alone...and even with """help"""" you are the one facing it....but at least....let us remember all your own light.....let us have a chance against your distorted reflection of who you really are......you are not only light......but for sure you are not only darkness......